Thursday, 02 July 2009

• being nice and other un-katie-like thoughts

  Everytime I say something mean about something else.... I feel like punching myself. I used to just blab shit about people all day and not even notice until say, sunday morning. But now... I've really changed. Not really, but I jst have this constant inner battle inwhich I do stupid things and regret them RIGHT AWAY , verses say, in a few days or when people call me out.

  This is interesting.

  Today I was at Party City with my friend because she was applying too. I pointed out all my friends and introduced them. And when we left, I whispered, "that's the mean boss". She replied, "oh really? she seemed nice."

  Then it hit me in the face. I wasn't giving "mean boss" a chance. I mean, if she ever gets hired, mean boss might not get a chance to prove herself to be anymore more than a "mean boss" to my friend. My friend just will inherently think her of mean and everything she does due to mean motives.

  But that's just me thinking too much into the situation.

  The truth is, when you talk smack about people, you're really doing them a disservice. In church we learned about opression and how it's beyond your control. Most of the time we're referring to say, the Indian workers and prostitutes forced/sold into their work. But the idea is the same... It's unkind and unjust. Nobody wants it. And most importantly? It's not fair.

  And in another perspective.... I don't want this to be a part of me. I don't want people to desribe me as having a potty mouth or a reputation for having mean things to say about people. I'd like to say that it's true and that it's not me to do something like this. But the reality is.... that I am mean. I am unkind. I do say rude things.

  
  One postcard from this week's postsecret that really caught my eye and made me think.

  I really want to change.

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