Once Sherry asked me if I'd like to meet myself.
My answer? HELL NO. I am loud, I am annoying, I am stupid, I am naive, I am oblivious, I am shallow, I am rude, I am clumsy, I am fat, I am so many other things. I would not be friends with anyone like me.
Today is one of the main reasons why I can't even tolerate myself, much less others tolerate me.
My first block is government. Usually nobody pays attention and we just talk the whole block. Except we had a substitute and you know how it goes - if it's a blow off class, it will be rowdy x10. It's the same thing as with the teacher, except with more cuss words and leaving class, probably. Wrong. The substitute started talking and apparently, we were suposed to listen. Everyone shushed except for me. I guess I didn't get the memo and I was the only one talking. Big deal?
The sub just stares at me. I realized everoyne else was staring at me too. Crap. I stop talking (ovbiously) and just smile at him.
"Please continue," he said.
"Excuse me?"
"What you have to say is probably more important than what I have to say."
"Um, no sir. It's not."
"Well, I want to hear it."
"Uh, I'm done."
"Are you sure?"
It just goes on for thirty more seconds of rediculious question asking. I felt sooooooooo gay for accidently talking. Fuck. Something that could have been resolved in three seconds (aka him moving on) went on for two minutes. I was thoroughly humiliated. He kept on bringing up how disrespectful seniors are and then looking at me.
Thanks, asshole. But it really sucked to have a day start out like that.
Last night, I accidently told Kevin that today was late start. I forgot to tell him that it actually wasn't. So he was late to school and just decided to skip first block all together. I felt so so so dumb. He was pissed of course.
Later, I said the world's stupidest thing. In art, I was drawing this pin up doll kind of girl. This girl, who is notorous for drawing naked chicks and boobs on things came up and said she liked it.
"Thanks," I said, "its kind of like the stuff you like."
The second that shit came out of my mouth 0________0 I felt like shooting myself.
"What is that suposed to mean?"
I stared at the ground. "Well... you draw naked girls alot."
"No I don't."
Which was lol because she was holding a giant canvas with a burlesque dancer and on her table was a painting of female body parts something or other.
"Well, all the stuff you do in this class is like, a bunch of boobs and stuff."
Shit. I am retarded.
She looks at me quizzically and I dig myself yet another hole. "Sorry, it was a joke and it came out all wrong."
I am seriously the biggest douchebag at ww. Fuck.
As if THAT wasn't bad enough, just minutes later I accidently get acrylic paint on my best friend's jacket. I felt soooo fucking bad. I tried to clean it but you know acrylic paint. It's pretty much permanent. She got so pissed and didn't even look at me for the rest of the block. Ugh.
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I need to learn to keep my mouth shut and just... fuck. Not show up at school? Yeah that'd be awesome. This is just one of those days where I wonder why God created me in the first place. Anyway, one of my favorite phrases from these videos I used to keep up with online is "Chris is the asshole of the day". It's when he says something dumb or douchey and his toy horse says that.
Well that's exactly how I feel.
My name is Katie and I am the asshole of the day.